Thursday, January 13, 2011

Pretender

I was chopping 20 pounds of potatoes for the Safe Nite din-din at our church the other day... As I was chopping I grabbed the iPod and started listening to some of my dad's oldies cds that I downloaded when we were out there.

My dad LOVED the oldies! He taught me, no, he didn't teach me, he raised me up on them too! He taught me The Stroll! I remember in our family room when we were watching it on a PBS special, that song came on. There were people on the tv doing it and dad was like come on, let's do it! I was like ok. So we got up and started doing it! It was so fun! A memory that I won't forget! The ONLY time I saw my dad "dancing", it you call that dancing! haha ;)

Anyways, I clicked on a certain album and was listening to all the songs, but one song caught my attention. It's called The Great Pretender.

As I was listening to the words and singing, I stopped and thought about it. Now I know this isn't 100% the meaning of it... But seriously, how many of us pretend? How many of us go around and pretend like things are ok?

We live in a world where everything is soooo busy! If you aren't doing something, you are bored. If you aren't watching a movie and doing something on the computer or iPod, iPad, at the same time, then you feel like you may miss something. Or miss someones new status on Facebook. Ok, so not all of us are like that... but when was the last time you sat and watched a movie while doing nothing?
But what about when someone asks you how you are and you respond you are fine, but yet, you aren't. How many of us would actually STOP and LISTEN if a friend is hurting. Even at church... How many of us are busy going around trying to get everything ready that we miss that one person that wants a hug and needs that hug? How many of us miss that couple with the kids that walked out because we are in our little world?

How many of you ask someone how they are, but just keep walking to barely hear their answer? How many of you ACTUALLY want to STOP and LISTEN to them? Do you? Do I?

If I am honest, no, I am not like that, but yet I am. I've gone to church and had to get some last minute stuff and as you are walking by, "Hey, how are you?" But you don't actually STOP and LISTEN!

How many of us are just to busy?

Yesterday was the first day for me, other than being on vacation, where I could actually SIT down and not HAVE to do something! Oh my, let me tell you what, I LOVED it and I MISS it! I am so going to have more days like that!

I got showered and put on my orange sweat pants and sweat shirt (no, it isn't bright orange, a nice burnt orange color so it doesn't look like I just escaped from jail!! LOL) and came out to fix breakfast. Kotah comes up to me and asks, mommy, why are you wearing your exercise clothes? I am like honey, they aren't exercise clothes. I like to wear this when I know I am not going anywhere and we aren't today, so that's why I am wearing this! Her reply, oh, ok, I just don't remember you wearing those other than when we walked the mall for exercise.

Seriously, has it been THAT long since we've had nothing pressing to do other than school work? Man!

I am promising myself to have more days like that!

Just my random thoughts... they are many more... ;)

I've enclosed the lyrics to The Great Pretender... The last part isn't what I am talking about, but the first few lines are....

The Great Pretender by The Platters

Oh yes, I'm the great pretender
Pretending I'm doing well
My need is such
I pretend too much
I'm lonely but no one can tell

Oh yes, I'm the great pretender
Adrift in a world of my own
I play the game but to my real shame
You've left me to dream all alone

Too real is this feeling of make-believe
Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal

Oh yes, I'm the great pretender

Just laughing and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not you see
I'm wearing my heart like a crown

Too real when i feel what my heart can't conceal

Oh yes, I'm the great pretender
Just laughing and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not you see
I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're...
Pretending that you're still around

1 comment:

Jena said...

love this post, Mandy! Thank you for the reminder- it is so important. I have a love/hate relationship with being busy. I need to make sure that I don't let the unimportant things consume my life! It is too easy to do...

Love you my friend!!!